#127: When you make resolutions...

...sometimes it's really hard to keep 'em. Yeah, I said I'd be better at updating this blog and all my other stuff. Unfortunately, when you're a Domestic Crisis Engineer, you tend to get burned out kinda easily. Sorry about that.

Things here have been a struggle lately. Part of it is the fact that I haven't been well for the past month now...mostly sick and dealing with RA flare-ups. I actually had to stop writing for 3 weeks because of it. Now I'm getting back to my creative stuff, but it can be pretty hard.

In addition to all the challenges of dealing with 2 autistic kids who right now have some issues at school and home, one high-maintainance infant, and one most-of-the-time clueless and conflict-avoiding engineer husband, doctors who schedule things on THEIR convenience and others who think they know how to raise my kids (when they don't have kids themselves, natch), I think I've been hit by delayed PPD (post-partum depression). I had it after having Michael and I've been on meds. for the better part of 5 1/2 years, but there are days when it gets pretty bad.

People ask me how I manage to do things and I honestly tell them, "I really don't know." I have to resist the impulse to wall myself off, especially since my hubby is anti-social and his idea of a great weekend is to walk around the mall (without spending any $$$ if possible, BTW). I write fan-fiction, I do my art, and I study my languages. Right now, I'm wading through some Scottish Gaelic stuff (for a future story), even though I'm about as Scottish as say...Jackie Chan. If anything, I do like a linguistic challenge.

It does keep the depression at bay, but sometimes it can get really difficult. I usually don't ask for too much, but if you can spare a kind note or two of encouragement, I'd really appreciate it.

Thanks,
Annie

#126: My new New Year's resolution is...

...to update my web stuff more often! LOL!

I know, I've been really bad at updating this blog and my website, but the subtitle to this blog is "Writing at the Speed of Life". Speed of life has been at more than 1000 mph lately, esp. with Sarah being here. She's doing really well, over 9 pounds and growing like a weed. She's starting to smile and bat at her hanging toys. Cute little kid, but then again, I'm biased.

Michael's going back to school tomorrow. I think he's had a really good break. He got a car racing set for Christmas that he loves, as well as clothes. Christina's birthday is also tomorrow...she'll be 3! Where has the time gone?? She'll be going to Tryon Hills Pre-K, the same school Michael went to, and to Miss C."s class...Michael's old teacher.

Still working on my art and writing, though I'm in the middle of a bad RA flare in my hands. I'm doing things a little bit at a time as my hands allow. I really need to go back to the rheumatologist, because this is really annoying.

Updated my website at Creativemum and I'm now on Facebook and Twitter, so if anyone's on FB and wants to be a Friend, let me know. ;)

More updates tomorrow.

Annie